Showing posts with label loneliness. Show all posts
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Monday, January 9, 2012

Sad Songs

1 Chronicles 6:33
Here are the men who served, together with their sons: From the Kohathites: Heman, the musician, the son of Joel, the son of Samuel.

Ever had a friend who speaks depressed all the time?  Given a choice, most of us would rather not hang around them, right? Sure we’d give them a day, but just not daily. Visiting their black hole is draining. It’s a no-laughter, don’t-tell-me-about-the-good-life zone. They have it all un-sorted and they seem to plan to keep it that way. Mine don’t listen, although he said he was. But on our next hellos, guess what? Yup,  more like a recorded conversation. I usually run for a breather every after our helpless time together. Otherwise, look, I’m sounding more like him - - dragging you down-depressed here :<

Psalm 88 was said to be the saddest psalm of all. Although there were other psalms who shared negative tones with it, but the rest ended in hope. This psalm ended in darkness still.  It was penned by Heman, one of David’s three chief musicians. But why would David choose such a man to lead in worship? As Samuel’s grandson, Heman had unfaithfulness in his immediate bloodline. His father’s bribery and injustice was what caused Israel to ask for a king, rejecting God’s leadership through the Levites since then. And this man had been nursing an affliction since his youth. He may be skillful musically, but downstage - his whole life was in despair. His song being included in the book meant God allowed his pain to be sung by all. Unimagineable! All the while I’ve embraced the idea that no king would ever allow long faces in his presence. But David, and God, accepted him. He was even a king’s seer. Some say, although not scholars all agree, that he was the same Heman whose wisdom was second to Solomon’s. True or not, what’s noteworthy was his persevering faithfulness and the excellence he applied to his tasks, despite the depression. He may have lost all friends prior and during his lifetime of lows, yet he never lost faith in God, whose ears are not deaf to tears or sad songs.    

I guess this truth is for us who, in one way or another, were first to give up on our depressed friends. We rebuked them for not trying and yet we’re sharing that ground with them. Love’s language is not always through words or wrapped solutions. Heman survived life not because God answered his prayers. God chose silence, but He made sure Heman felt His presence. He used a man familiar with loneliness and long nights to inspire him.  In singing David’s song, Heman realized God accepts sad songs too. And so he wrote his own. It may not sound like glee, but his song continued to hit. Now he’s paying it forward - - to us, who are in despair modes and heavy tones. Listen as he now plays your intro. God’s all-set to hear you too. You may sing anytime you're ready...

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

God-Sent

1 Samuel 23:15-16
“While David was at Horesh in the Desert of Ziph, he learned that Saul had come to take his life. And Saul’s son Jonathan went to David at Horesh and helped him find strength in God.”

my clay birthday cake
from rilian
When the clocked ticked 12 midnight earlier, I was greeted with my fave chocolate drink and the warmest hug from my husband. Happy Birthday To Me! Today is the first time I will have to celebrate it so far from everyone else. I usually look forward to a full week eating out with friends, have all my favorites cooked by my mom, and have an exclusive date with Tris. I laid in bed feeling a big bit lonely for all those are out of the question now. Who’s to greet me here? And then I woke up wrestled by my kids. When they saw me open my eyes, I got hugs and kisses and ‘I love you mom’s’ - - enough to lift the shadow of the lonely night. ‘Life is so beautiful!’ I can’t help but say. An hour later, the water delivery boy came in for our refill and saw me baking blueberry muffins. I reasoned we’re having a special breakfast for my special day. He right away shifted to an upbeat tone and gave me a greeting. The sincerity warmed my heart and I was still smiling when he left. I’m sure he was God-sent. I may not be able to go and be with those I’m now missing, but who says God can’t send His people to me?

The last Psalm David wrote before coming to Keilah was the 142nd.  He was in a cave, away from family and friends, and verse four sadly paints what greatly pains his heart: ‘Look to my right and see, no one is concerned for me. I have no refuge, no one cares for my life.’ This warrior became a child. As if adding to his heavy soul, these people whom he rescued from those looting Philistines will surrender him to Saul, thus the need to flee again. Day after day he was being searched by the jealous king, although God did not allow him to be found. But God’s kindness happened. Jonathan, his best friend, out of nowhere, came and helped him find strength in God. We can read the same scenario in Gethsemane. Jesus, being in anguish, His sweat like drops of blood falling to the ground, all-knowing of the cross that lies before Him, was visited by an angel from heaven to strengthen Him. Strongholds may fail, disciples may sleep, mountains may be shaken and the hills be removed, but God’s love remains. An ever-present help in time of trouble.

It’s my thirty-sixth year today and I’ve lost count of the many times God has sent people to secure me of His love. For lending a hand, listening to my cries, making me laugh-loud, for every needed push, and the necessary pulls, my dear friends, thank you. You we’re God-sent, and yes, I miss you all.  Allow me to return the favor, for God is sending me too. I may not know in detail all that you’re going through - -  loneliness, heartbreak, stagnation, persecution, sickness, lost of direction, failure - - but know that God is able to fill your empty cups. Find strength in Him for we can’t have it elsewhere. ‘Call upon Me’,  God says in Psam 91:15,  ‘..and I will answer. I will be with you in trouble. I will rescue you and honor you. With long life I will satisfy you.’ A blessed day ahead, my God-sent friends, and again, Happy Birthday to me :>
Showing posts with label loneliness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label loneliness. Show all posts

Sad Songs

1 Chronicles 6:33
Here are the men who served, together with their sons: From the Kohathites: Heman, the musician, the son of Joel, the son of Samuel.

Ever had a friend who speaks depressed all the time?  Given a choice, most of us would rather not hang around them, right? Sure we’d give them a day, but just not daily. Visiting their black hole is draining. It’s a no-laughter, don’t-tell-me-about-the-good-life zone. They have it all un-sorted and they seem to plan to keep it that way. Mine don’t listen, although he said he was. But on our next hellos, guess what? Yup,  more like a recorded conversation. I usually run for a breather every after our helpless time together. Otherwise, look, I’m sounding more like him - - dragging you down-depressed here :<

Psalm 88 was said to be the saddest psalm of all. Although there were other psalms who shared negative tones with it, but the rest ended in hope. This psalm ended in darkness still.  It was penned by Heman, one of David’s three chief musicians. But why would David choose such a man to lead in worship? As Samuel’s grandson, Heman had unfaithfulness in his immediate bloodline. His father’s bribery and injustice was what caused Israel to ask for a king, rejecting God’s leadership through the Levites since then. And this man had been nursing an affliction since his youth. He may be skillful musically, but downstage - his whole life was in despair. His song being included in the book meant God allowed his pain to be sung by all. Unimagineable! All the while I’ve embraced the idea that no king would ever allow long faces in his presence. But David, and God, accepted him. He was even a king’s seer. Some say, although not scholars all agree, that he was the same Heman whose wisdom was second to Solomon’s. True or not, what’s noteworthy was his persevering faithfulness and the excellence he applied to his tasks, despite the depression. He may have lost all friends prior and during his lifetime of lows, yet he never lost faith in God, whose ears are not deaf to tears or sad songs.    

I guess this truth is for us who, in one way or another, were first to give up on our depressed friends. We rebuked them for not trying and yet we’re sharing that ground with them. Love’s language is not always through words or wrapped solutions. Heman survived life not because God answered his prayers. God chose silence, but He made sure Heman felt His presence. He used a man familiar with loneliness and long nights to inspire him.  In singing David’s song, Heman realized God accepts sad songs too. And so he wrote his own. It may not sound like glee, but his song continued to hit. Now he’s paying it forward - - to us, who are in despair modes and heavy tones. Listen as he now plays your intro. God’s all-set to hear you too. You may sing anytime you're ready...

God-Sent

1 Samuel 23:15-16
“While David was at Horesh in the Desert of Ziph, he learned that Saul had come to take his life. And Saul’s son Jonathan went to David at Horesh and helped him find strength in God.”

my clay birthday cake
from rilian
When the clocked ticked 12 midnight earlier, I was greeted with my fave chocolate drink and the warmest hug from my husband. Happy Birthday To Me! Today is the first time I will have to celebrate it so far from everyone else. I usually look forward to a full week eating out with friends, have all my favorites cooked by my mom, and have an exclusive date with Tris. I laid in bed feeling a big bit lonely for all those are out of the question now. Who’s to greet me here? And then I woke up wrestled by my kids. When they saw me open my eyes, I got hugs and kisses and ‘I love you mom’s’ - - enough to lift the shadow of the lonely night. ‘Life is so beautiful!’ I can’t help but say. An hour later, the water delivery boy came in for our refill and saw me baking blueberry muffins. I reasoned we’re having a special breakfast for my special day. He right away shifted to an upbeat tone and gave me a greeting. The sincerity warmed my heart and I was still smiling when he left. I’m sure he was God-sent. I may not be able to go and be with those I’m now missing, but who says God can’t send His people to me?

The last Psalm David wrote before coming to Keilah was the 142nd.  He was in a cave, away from family and friends, and verse four sadly paints what greatly pains his heart: ‘Look to my right and see, no one is concerned for me. I have no refuge, no one cares for my life.’ This warrior became a child. As if adding to his heavy soul, these people whom he rescued from those looting Philistines will surrender him to Saul, thus the need to flee again. Day after day he was being searched by the jealous king, although God did not allow him to be found. But God’s kindness happened. Jonathan, his best friend, out of nowhere, came and helped him find strength in God. We can read the same scenario in Gethsemane. Jesus, being in anguish, His sweat like drops of blood falling to the ground, all-knowing of the cross that lies before Him, was visited by an angel from heaven to strengthen Him. Strongholds may fail, disciples may sleep, mountains may be shaken and the hills be removed, but God’s love remains. An ever-present help in time of trouble.

It’s my thirty-sixth year today and I’ve lost count of the many times God has sent people to secure me of His love. For lending a hand, listening to my cries, making me laugh-loud, for every needed push, and the necessary pulls, my dear friends, thank you. You we’re God-sent, and yes, I miss you all.  Allow me to return the favor, for God is sending me too. I may not know in detail all that you’re going through - -  loneliness, heartbreak, stagnation, persecution, sickness, lost of direction, failure - - but know that God is able to fill your empty cups. Find strength in Him for we can’t have it elsewhere. ‘Call upon Me’,  God says in Psam 91:15,  ‘..and I will answer. I will be with you in trouble. I will rescue you and honor you. With long life I will satisfy you.’ A blessed day ahead, my God-sent friends, and again, Happy Birthday to me :>